I Need All The Help I Can Get

I'm a good worker. I work hard. I really do. Everyone says I do a great job. When I'm present. I've been accumulating tons of leave without pay and advance leave because of several reasons, the biggest being me just not wanting to get up in the mornings. Depressed? Maybe a little. Overtired? Yeah, probably. Lazy? Yup. But here is the deal......I feel like a piece of horse poop when I don't go into work, and then I get into trouble for not coming to work like I should, which makes me feel like an even bigger heap of crap. How to break the cycle?


I think I've made some progress with that. First, I put the alarm clock across the room. It's been working great! I've also been going to bed at a reasonable hour instead of staying up half the night reading. But mostly, I don't want to feel like a piece of poop anymore. So I'm doing much better on that front. Just last Friday I was told by someone in a high position of authority that I'm doing a stellar job and it's like I'm a completely new person, and to keep up the good work. Yay! Feels good. 


Today I'm handed a little certificate of appreciation for a fundraiser I helped out with several months back. Cool! Not too big a deal though. Just a minute ago my boss's deputy came by to ask me something about where some files on the computer are stored, and I said "hey I got an award check it out". She looked it over and said that I should definitely tell my boss about it since it can help with my performance appraisal. I said to her, "cool! I need all the help I can get". Haahaaa. The sad part is it's true!

The another person in a position of authority came by to ask me about closing out some tasks left over from last week and when I told him that the main person is back and has that duty now, he was outwardly bummed that I wasn't going to be the one to handle the tasks for the day. He said that "everyone" likes me doing task duty because I'm nice, pleasant to work with, and always ahead of the game. I was sincerely flattered, and then said "tell my boss what you just said I need all the help I can get!!" He said he would. Yay!


I'm really a good worker. I work hard, never do anything half-assed (except come to work) and am the best at what I do when I decide to do it. I like when people tell me I'm doing a good job. I can beat the slump I've been in for the past few months. Right? Right.